I know what you mean. Sometimes it is hard to separate your needs from your wants, and not just in the sexual sense.

I used to think that I "wanted" to masturbate in bondage, and that I could stop. Until I tried to stop. I couldn't totally eliminate it from my life, therefore, to some degree, I need it.

It's a lot easier to deal with when the "desire" or "need", whichever it is, doesn't require another person to be played out. I don't have to pay a professional to fulfill my needs, at least not yet. And I hope that if I ever get to the point when I need another person, I'll have a partner who's willing to oblige. I'll be lucky if I do.

Not sure what to say to your problem. If your wife is okay with you going to a professional, then I say, don't worry and just have fun. If not, then you'll find out if it's really a need or just a desire.