lol you can ask anything hun. topping from the bottom means playing like a submissive but trying to manipulate the scene to get what you want instead of what the Dom wants. i learned not to do that because when Master realized what i was doing He said "ok if you aren't ready to let go of control don't lie to me and say that you are. I love you and if a Master isn't what you want then I'm not forcing that on you," then He left the room so i could think. it was at that point i figured out what i really wanted and that was to gove up control completely and since then things have never been better.