Xandra,

I love your response, and I thank you for it. lol I find it wonderful that you admit you couldn't take what you give to your pet without hitting back. My Master says the same thing. I enjoy being bound, and he would probably kill someone if they tried to bind him. But, we all have our likes and dislikes. I enjoy pain, he enjoys inflicting it.

You mentioned a deepening respect for your pet, and that you enjoyed his reactions. I love it when my Master tells me I whimper pretty. Along with that feeling of respect, is there a feeling of pride, in yourself or your pet? Do you feel your attention is more on what you are doing, or the reactions you get from your pet?

Sorry to be so inquisitive but this is a topic I've search for answers on for years.

The best I can usually find is topics on sexual sadism, which is far from helpful. They never get into the feelings or thoughts of the individual, only treatment options and how to fix it. lol I personally don't want it fixed. I'm quite happy with my Master the way he is.