As a few others have stated to you in this post, only you can decide what is best for you.

A question such as yours will have many different opinions, some which will give you hope, some which will alleviate your worries, and others which won't make you feel very good as a person.
Just remember don't take the opionions you don't like and disregard them, don't take them personally either, everyone is entitled to have thier say. Don't take the ones you do like and use them as a guideline.
Weigh your options carefully, take in everyone's advice and try to see how you can best sort out your own situation.


I am in agreement with Ozme that you read and ask questions of others who have been in your shoes and hopefully you will be able to extract some helpful advice to your problem.
As well I fully agree with In2Kink, don't go out and find a Dominant right away, take your time to figure out what is best for you before you dwelve into deeper waters.

As for me, I have been in your situation and I still am to a certain degree.
My boyfriend will never share in this lifestyle with me, nor does he care to understand it.
When I first discovered my submissive side I was secretive about it. I played on cam and was on the fence really about whether or not it was cheating.
I eventually told my boyfriend about this site, but he was not really enthused.
We both discussed my submission and my need for kink. He ended up trying to appease me, but we stopped because he did not really enjoy it and was only doing it to try and make me happy.

Even though I have quite a bit of privacy, my boyfriend still knew that I was playing on line, and talking to others. I had a cam and he knew I wasn't just talking to my friends. I also looked guilty half of the time when he came home early and I barely finished cleaning up from what I was doing.
I eventually showed him my toys, so that he wouldn't find them and start asking a lot of questions.

He and I haven't talked extensively, however we have both come to an agreement with things.
I can do what I want, I can be owned on line, as long as I don't do it in front of him.

I now have an issue of wanting to have a real time relationship, because I would like more now.
I will more than likely be able to do that, but I would prefer to discuss this before I go ahead and do it.

If you would like to talk you can PM me or add me to messenger. I don't know if I can give you the advice you need, but I am able to relate to your situation at least.