Hello Trinity96, welcome to the site.

So many people have given you such excellent points of view that I don't want to say too much more. However, I do want to ask if you know for sure that hubby would not consider anything in this life. I have always had submissive tendencies before I even knew there was a word for it or that there were other people like me, but I met my husband when I was 16 and married by the time I was 22. I thought that he would never consider anything remotely related to BDSM (a sweet gentle guy like him!) and so I satisfied myself with fantasies and reading fiction (no webcams or online play though - couldn't if I wanted to - I am a computer ignoramus!). It wasn't until a couple of years ago when he was away on a business trip that he asked me on IM what I was doing on the computer and I gave him the link to a story (with BDSM elements) I was reading that we started discussing this topic and exploring BDSM in real life ourselves. We are still very much newbies and to be honest I am not sure if he is really into it as I am - but we will keep talking it through. I am quite sad that I wasted nearly 10 years by not communicating earlier what my needs/desires were!

So please have a chat with the husband if you haven't already and be sure that you aren't looking elsewhere for something that you already have at home. Best wishes