Quote Originally Posted by ChainsOfGonzo View Post
It was sort of strange for me. I've always been a very dominant, abrasive person. One would think I'd have turned out to be Dominant.

But when I began to be sexually aware, I didn't fantasize about dominating others, as I do in the rest of my life. I fantasized about being dominated.

As I became sexually active, I kind of did the same thing. I always dated really vanilla people, but I would try to sort of nudge them into tying my up or otherwise "holding the reigns." It didn't usually work. I found myself "topping from the bottom."


And then I met my Master.

He had some experience with BDSM, both as a Dom and a sub, but tended strongly on the Dom side. I picked up on it the first night we were together, and from there out, it just fell into place. It seemed so natural and so instant. Click.

Most people would think it strange that someone like me, someone so dominant and independent and devoted to my unfettered freedom, would be submissive. But it sort of makes sense to me. I am an all-or-nothing kind of person, and anyone who can earn ALL of my respect is entitled to everything I have to give. I trust him with everything, from my life to the inner sanctum of my mind. And in return, he guards that very carefully.

It's freeing to not have to be the strong pillar of mental/emotional stone that I am in most of my life. While I enjoy managing things and am good at wielding that sort of power, it is even more satisfying to be able to let it go.
It is like we are the same person. Damn! I have always been the dominate person in the relationship but I always tried to get people to dominate me.
I just get sick of being the one to tell someone how to get sexual pleasure or how to give me pleasure. I have finally found someone that is willing to tell me what to do and I actually trust him enough to let him do it. I have had some bad experiences in my life but I was finally ready to give it another shot because of my Master. Since the first day I met him, we have had a connection. I was not sure what it was about him that made my heart beat faster and made me get wet. His personality was just what I was looking for. The nice part for me is, that he does not have to be that way to me 24/7 we are friends as well. There is a time and a place for it and we stick to that because I have to be Dom some time for some things. If I weren't, my life would not go well. I just wanted to respond to your post because it connected well with what I was feeling. Thanks for sharing!