Thanks so much to everyone who has replied. I was in a good place for a few days but am unsettled again. I know that some people have described needing to be "tamed" or not respecting a dom who hasn't done that. But that's not what's happening here. It's like a series of invitations, and I can accept them or not. I can choose to travel where his voice takes me, or I can stand still. And I'm OK with accepting these invitations, so far, but I can see down this long hallway until maybe it gently curves and I can't see beyond the curve, but I have a pretty good idea of what's there, and it's taking me further and further from where I came in. I just don't know where I want to wind up.