The next day

[cookiecat]

well i have never played in person with her yet, but when we play online the next day i feel happy and fulfilled. i also feel so horny that all i want to do is play all day and night. It is addicting in a way that I cannot explain. Playing makes me crave that dominance she has over me. It also makes me submit completely to my feelings for her and for my submission.

this crazy internet stuff. tend to your real life, be aware of how much time you linger online waiting for that next encounter. these new-found feelings can be pretty powerful and it's all too easy to let other things slide.

enjoy - but be mindful, too.

You're spot on, Adriana. I love, when it's all over -

*the lovely exhaustion that comes after a hard session,
*the contented sleep of the innocent the next night,
*the aches in expected and unexpected places - the arm muscles that held position for 'hours' while my Master worked his evil magic behind me, thigh muscles that strained to hold wide open, neck stiffness that comes from repositioning your face on the bed because you have to breathe,
*the bruising in bits and pieces over my body that remind me of passionate grips,
*the sting and ache of my bottom after caning. I want to move like an arthritic old lady, and the delicious pretence that I can leap like a mountain goat because I'm back in the vanilla world. I love thinking of what I've done with him when not a soul would suspect me of such thoughts,
*the cane marks on my bottom, his beautiful gift to me, the way they go through set changes and the loss I feel when they are definitely fading but then the growing hunger in me for a fresh set,
*the sheer euphoria days after, the deep and intimate connection I feel with my Master. I always want more!
*the lingering aroma of my bag of tricks - when I open it, I can smell him.

yes. yes. and yes.