Quote Originally Posted by khulmz22 View Post
umm...ok so i just joined a couple days ago...

mainly i joined because i couple weeks ago after i described to my friends the kind of guy i was interested in, one who is in complete control of the relationship, he jokingly/seriously said i was into "bdsm."
before that i had never heard the term but for some reason it stuck and i decided to check it out online.

i have been reading how people knew they were a sub of not, and i found alot of stories about when people were kids. i dont really have any stories like that...
Not everyone comes to this lifestyle by the same road. It doesn't matter... now that you're here, take whatever parts make you hot, leave the rest to others... or to learn more about later.
a year ago in my self defense class the teacher told us a horror story of how a woman got raped in her house at knife point and for some reason when i left the class i began to regularly fantasize bout that. lookin back now, it seems terrible of me to fantasize about something awful like that.
does that mean anything besides me being seriously disturbed???
Sorry to disappoint you but this is NOT the place to come if you want to be told something's wrong with ya.

We may not be mainstream, but then... who really is. Mainstream is what people talk about in public... but not what they do at home. Kinsey, Masters and Johnson, et. al., have proved that to us.
i never admitted that to anyone, nor the fact that i have fantasized about being takaen by multiple men. im not tryin to actually have that like happen in real life...like actually being raped by a random person on the street, but the fantasy of it....
there have been other "odd" fantasies, or situations i have enjoyed, but sexually ive never actually done anything interesting at all submissive or not beyond missionary! (lame i kno!)
Then perhaps it's high time to give some of it a whirl!!
i dunno. any advice or insights would be appreciated. is there really no need for me to wonder if i am possibly submissive, or do i just want it rough...really rough??
Could be either. With the right mentor, you can probably find out.