Thank You SilverWulf.......i think i answered it a long time ago but was hooked.

blythe spirit.......i totally agree 10 months is a long time. i have had these feelings for quite some time but have been sort of "hooked"......sucked into the attention (so to speak). Hard to get away and stay away. He has called sporatically but always a blocked number. i know......i sound naive and a bit stupid and sometimes can kick myself because i'm so not like that. Thank you for your reply.

i think i just need someone outside the situation to validate that my gut is right and i should just move on.