Thank you all for your suggestions and support. I am trying to do some more reading to better acquaint myself with deferential speech, and I did manage the courage to bring it up in conversation with my Master today (I am horrible at communicating period). He is going to endeavor to impart his speech theory more clearly to me while I try and not make every negative comment from him into my own personal failure. He is not Gorean, wants me as a submissive rather than a slave, and told me that he did not want me to memorize a list of rules and behaviors. We will work through my speech and behavior patterning together and in group settings until I feel more comfortable. I just have never been trained (or even experienced) how to give respect and be deferential, and I was just really panicked yesterday. I am very glad that I found my voice today and was respected for it. I appreciate all of your responses so much!! Thank you