It's so powerful and addictive it's scary, isn't it ladies? And it doesn't take a voice over the phone or something said in person. Just 3-4 voiceless words over a messenger (e.g. "go get your vibe; take off your panties; go put your plug in") by the right man and my mind goes blank, my vision darkens, there's a roaring in my ears, I pop out in goose bumps, my breathing becomes labored, that familiar gush between my legs becomes a river, my nipples go hard as diamonds, my breasts swell, and I just melt into a puddle. Something hits me so strongly I feel like I've been pole-axed. It rushes to the core of me and then slowly spreads up and out, especially up my torso. Even my shoulder blades hurt and ache and need something. It's such a strong jolt of pure, unadultrated lust that sometimes I think I will pass out (and often wonder if I have). And all this time I am (to the extent possible) thinking: "Am I crazy? Why am I so susceptible to this? Is this what being on morphine feels like? Is it as addictive as morphine? Oh God, I can't ever give this up! What kind of idiot are you......wanting even your shoulder blades fucked? You are an out-of -control crazy woman and somebody is going to lock you away." And on and on and on I berate and chastise myself. Like I said in the first sentence: it's damned scary.
DIXIE