Quote Originally Posted by usbabe View Post
I can find parts of myself in almost every response in this thread. I did not even know what BDSM was until a year ago and I'm 47. I met a dom online and he introduced me to my submissive self. He also encourages and pushes me to constantly be learning about the lifestyle and about myself. I have to say my entire life has been a struggle, right from childhood when i was always in survival mode. I did recognize a few years ago that i was sick of trying to survive on my own and started looking for a man who was stronger and could handle me. I am an educated, workaholic, who is head strong, opinionated, a self-starter and can do anything i need to get done, by myself. How does that sound for a submissive? Although, when i met this dom online, something inside of me opened up, changed. When we talk on the phone my voice automatically softens.....my whole demeanor changes. That was not something he asked for it just is.

So yes......i am submissive.......i am learning constantly.......and i am an 'old' newbie. Looks like I've found my group. I love this thread....by the way.
This was me, I had heard of BDSM but only considered the sm part of it, the part that is still not for me. Like so many people, until I was exposed to it I honestly thought it to be something only freaks would do, not normal everyday people...or maybe I'm just a freak now LOL

I had never considered myself someone who needs a man in her life, I'm strong, a survivor who can do just fine on her own...but doesn't want to, I have a lot to give but only to the right one.

Cheers to the "old newbies