i read this post and once again my head hung..

Yes i am damaged through mental and physical both..

i can't speak for others as i am not them but i know without the submission .. i am lost ..a complete mess..

i can't organize myself... everything i do falls to peices without some sort of direction or drive pushing me...

My head is filled with constant thoughts and races through them all..

The memory of pains created years ago fill me as well and i feel usless and give up..

So yes damaged .. To need to be leaded and controlled ..yes ...

To be filled with pain until i can no longer feel the mental pain ..yes
to find that special place yes..

i am very lucky to have my Master R/L {The Tester`} and my O/L Sir {WyldWyl} although near always i feel i let them down constantly... Even when they assure me i don't...

Take note i am not looking for pity or anything.. i just wanted to be honest.. as you see some think i am strong ... but i am not.. i am a pet/kitten that hurts more often then she is willing to say.. and is curled in a ball more times then not...

So yes i feel that we all have some flaws and damages ... But i feel all people do..vanilla or not.. just some may not have had as bad or as severe.. We all run into times that aren't good... Some chalk it up to "a lesson well learnt" or "thats life".. Whether that has lead us to be a submissive or a Dom/me.. well i think it is a personal chioce..addiction or want or need or just lifestyle we have chosen.. no matter what the reason might be.. Everyone is different with different reasons...

So no i don't think the reason all subs are subs because they are damaged goods .. just some of us..

For me it is the damage of past life and illness.. but remember that is me.. not everyone..

Just my opinion

hugs
snow