I think my problem is...I may be a little bit of a prude. I have trouble vocalizing kinky stuff.
I am fine in written form. I am more than fine when we are talking about vanilla stuff or discussing BDSM in general (in fact I talk so much he barely gets to say anything, LOL), but the moment things turn "personal" I become this withdrawn, shy, blushing creature. It is very annoying and frustrating to myself.
For Heaven's sake, I am an *yada, yada*, I should be able to say cock without blushing and in a strong, audible voice (instead of mumbling).
I have decided to be a prude no more!
OK, so it may take awhile.
OK, a looooooong while.
Thank you girls so much for your help!!!!!!!