It takes time, it is not like you can just open the bottle pour it all out and clean up the mess in one step.
To use Jeanne's word...yea some of it is going to feel 'yucky' but from the sounds of it your going to experience a wide range of emotions and your going to have to learn to express them and deal with them in ways your unaccustomed to. Not all of it will be yucky, some will be quite a relief, even joyful.
Just let it happen....very good advice. AS much as your master wants this, and your ready to give. It is not something that can be forced.
Have you ever heard about how someone who has had extreme brain damage being taught to use different part of thier brain to regain function ? Some cases the person is in an infant like state and has to be taught, to suck, to swallow because it is not natural to them anymore. They have thier bodies moved to reproduce crawling.
I am not saying you were extremely brain damaged, just that you may have to learn totally new ways that are unfamiliar and possibly have to start the learning all the way back to the beginning if that makes sense.
I would also advice stocking up on tissue's, the boxes are so much prettier than having rolls of toilet paper all over the place.