Abuse in my life has really affected me. I've always felt beaten down. I had to grow up several years ahead of my time. I felt like I deserved to be beaten and abused. Overtime it turned into a love for being submissive. As a submissive, I've always felt like I'm able to please whoever is telling me what to do. I've always aimed at pleasing others, no matter the cost to myself. The abuse helped mold me into who I am today.