Quote Originally Posted by lucky#13 View Post
.. i have learned to numb myself to feeling.. but i finally decided to give into my submissive side.. HUGE STEP.. and now i must give up all that hidden pain, anger, sadness, etc..burried deep within me .. he wants me to completely show myself to him as do i .. b/c i want to show him how much i luv and care for him.. but i am having trouble letting those emotions out.. to letting my innerself out... if any of u have some experiences or advice on how u have been able to give your emotional side over please share them with me i would greatly apreciate it .. thank you
This is not for everyone, mind. But I have the same problem, too much self-control. As we play with whippings, one of the best things for me is to have a whipping, slowly going from light to very hard, ending with my screaming freely. This is a breaking down of barriers - a forced letting go.
It is not for everyone, and there must be a lot of trust and knowledge of each other, as no one knows what comes out when the walls are down, and after-care is important.
But it can be great!