For starters

Congratulations Markus...!!

and yes i agree with satisfied.. and the lack of control and letting go allowing another to take us places we dare not go ourselves, or cannot get there on our own such as subspace.. It allows us to open up to things we would never do... i think this helps us fufill those things in which we need to find that satisfaction we so desire...

i also sometimes wonder .. and maybe silly to consider it.. but after humiliation or a good whipping ..if the soft touch of a Dom/me is more wanted or needed and we seem to fall into it more natural and desire it more deeply.. so once it is actually done we tend to find more satisfaction and fufillment from it.. just a thought...

What ever the case hun .. i am so glad you finally found happiness within and the satisfaction and contentment that you so deserve...

just my opinion

hugs
snow