Alright, well i recently became the property of my new Master... the problem we are experiencing is my relunctancy to let go of myself and completely give myself to him mentally... the physical aspect is no problem.. letting him do as he pleases with my body is not the issue.. and i try DESPERATELY to give myself mentallly completely to him.. i really do.. and he is very patient with me and has no problem waiting.. i have many past experiences that i have been hurt like i am sure all of u have.. however mentally i do not deal well .. and have learned to bottle up ALL MY EMOTIONS.. perhaps this would better be explained by this... i have cried probably 3 or 4 times within the past yr.. and only 1 of those times was in front of someone else.. until this week where i have cried probably 2 or 3 times and twice while on the phone with him... i have learned to numb myself to feeling.. but i finally decided to give into my submissive side.. HUGE STEP.. and now i must give up all that hidden pain, anger, sadness, etc..burried deep within me .. he wants me to completely show myself to him as do i .. b/c i want to show him how much i luv and care for him.. but i am having trouble letting those emotions out.. to letting my innerself out... if any of u have some experiences or advice on how u have been able to give your emotional side over please share them with me i would greatly apreciate it .. thank you