Taking the First Steps

[Mairead]

I got to have another scene last night. *grins* I was told to get clothespins and toothpaste. Before last night, I had not used toothpaste other than on my teeth. I have seen the reactions that people have in Truth or Dare when toothpaste is mentioned, so I was pretty nervous. It didn’t help that the Dominant was enjoying my nervousness and was trying to make me squirm. It’s still amazing to me that someone can influence my emotions and behaviour to such an extent. I was completely flustered, just by her smirk. I wonder if that is a feeling that I will ever get used to.

I’m still enjoying the clothespins! This time I was instructed to put the forest of clothespins all over my inner and outer labia. It was a weird feeling, uncomfortable but not that bad really.

After the clothespins came off, it was time for the toothpaste. Since I was using it on myself, I was using dabs of it, but I actually really liked the tingly sensation. At one point, I was squirming a bit, but it never got to the point of being uncomfortable. Even when I was told to put a finger inside myself, and I (unthinkingly) used the finger that had been applying the toothpaste. Maybe my reactions would change if I used more toothpaste, globs instead of dabs, but as it was the toothpaste was great!

And between the clothespins and the toothpaste, I came hard, twice. And once again, I don’t usually come that easily from just clitoral stimulation. But I was almost cumming as soon as I turned the vibe on. At this point, the Dominant declared that I’m a “pain slut in training”. And at this point I can’t argue. The pain definitely worked to build up an orgasm without any other stimulation. But there are still so many sensations that I haven’t experienced yet, we both like the idea of me being “in training”.

I have been hesitant to actually admit that I have these tendencies. I think it is because until very recently, I’ve always thought of submission and the pain/pleasure mix as abstracts. Without a way to actually try them out (and without a Dominant telling me to try), they were concepts that had no bearing on how I saw myself. But now, they’re becoming real and I can’t really deny the feelings it brings out in me. It has changed the way I view my kink, finally getting a chance to figure out what I actually like.

Oh, and during the scene, I had also been instructed to tie myself up with rope (well, except for my hands). I thought you might enjoy a visual of the rope marks! (I'm glad I took those pictures last night....the marks have already faded.)

Thanks for reading!