Quote Originally Posted by mtbella43 View Post
I will tell him, but what I am feeling is it normal? I don't want to be weak by anymeans but also graves these feelings?
My personal belief is that all feelings are normal. To me, normal is a measure against ourselves, not what everyone else defines as 'normal', which is a totally different thing. For me, dominating is NOT normal, because it makes me feel abnormal when I do it. I know most people don't really look at the word normal the way I do, but if you feel something, and it's coming from within your heart, then that is a normal feeling for you. If you have desires you wish to explore, you should let your Master know. If you are afraid of his response, maybe you could try doing it in a more evasive way, like writing a letter to him or coming up with a game where that sort of thing could come out.

You know, you seem really worried about this. It could be that it will be a non-issue to your Master, and then all this worry will be for nothing. On the other hand, if your Master faults you for telling him your feelings, then you are left with a decision about the way you feel about those types of walls.

As far as being weak, you as a PERSON are not weak, regardless of the things you would like to do. Weakness is more of a mentality, although it manifests itself through actions/decisions. But that's just my 2 cents. I wouldn't worry so much about it. I wonder if you're more worried about the way your Master will respond to your feelings or the way you're dealing with those feelings: it seems to me that you might be afraid that those feelings dictate who you are as an individual, which I don't believe is true.