One thing you might want to tell your Master is that there is a difference between being mean and being cruel. To me, being 'mean' is bad. It implies negative feelings on the part of the Dom, and feels bad to me. Being cruel, however, can be hot, hot, hot. It just feels different than meanness, in a good way. I'll try to think of a better way to explain it today - maybe another member understands what I mean and can describe it better.