Quote Originally Posted by spicennice View Post
So then, do seratonin levels raise due to a situation or is it a random/biological thing only? I, as well, left home very early due to abuse. I have recently been involved in a light bdsm relationship and found that the power exchange, without the fear of having to 'protect' myself from abusive behaviour allowed me to accept my submissive tendancies whereas before I was constantly fighting to prove to myself that I was completely independent and needed nobody. I liked and felt comforted by the power exchange when it was presented to me in a non-threatening manner. I felt at peace. I am still trying to understand it as I spent so many years protecting myself. Did that in fact, raise my seratonin levels?
the study was only about dominance; they did actually see a drop in serotonin levels when a dominant baboon fell from his alpha position. i myself feel calmer in my relationship with my Master and the more power He has been given, the deeper into TPE W/we are the calmer i feel. i don't know if that means what for whatever neuro stuff in my brain. i have made an attempt to stop questioning it and just try to enjoy it.

i have been glad to see that other subs have questioned it though, as my Master says He has never questioned His dominant tendencies at all. He has just accepted that He was happier this way. i have been slowly accepting my submission for what it is. i think all the social stuff about submission makes people feel bad for who they are. i would imagine it is way harder for male submissives than me. i don't know.