Well I do think that a big part of why I like being spanked so much really does have to do with me being physically abused as a child.

I was hit whenever I did something bad, consequently I don't tell my parents things because as a child, they would have freaked out and started hitting me... even though they won't do that now, it's a conditioned response to lie and pretend like I didn't do anything wrong. This is also why I never want kids; what if I end up like my parents?

I've always liked the 'kidnap' fantasy of being tied to a chair with tape over my mouth... it was a game I played as a child... young as 3 I believe and I'm sure that had nothing to do with being spanked a lot.