13'sbadkitty, I absolutely understood it in that way. Thank you so much for your input it is very valuable. I have also just realized the implications of what you stated as far as my health and the lack of pain response. I don't think I would know if there was something wrong with me if it slapped me in the face. This is a pretty scary thing to realize. It helps me to understand a ton about my reactions to things in the past.

Oz, thank you so much for your suggestions. They are, as always totally sensible and I will absolutely incorporate them in the future if I need to. Thank you so much for helping.