death of your Dom/Master/Domme

[IAN 2411]

i have started this thread on another site and i am interested to see what results that i get on here so here is the question. How would you cope, and would you look for another Dom/Master/Domme

Two years ago this May my Mistress/Wife died, i am 59 years old and she was my Mistress for 30 years. It rips the guts right out of you, and there is no way that i could ever replace her in either roll, and even now i still have trouble coming to terms with being without her. Take notice though, whether in vanilla or BDSM this is an inevitable fact of life in any relationship, but to lose two parts of your existence at the same time as i have, is something that you can never replace. Apart from the memories, that part of your life is gone for ever, and you walk the lonely road of dispair and discontentment, and continually asking yourself [what if and why]?

Regards ian 2411