I couldnt have said it better myself Crovack.

Youve heard this very same thing from myself and others before in other areas of the forums and in chat singletail...it is hard to be strong somtimes but it is better than being miserable...I pray you will find the strength and courage to do what you need to do...ultimately only you can decide.

There is no such thing as a jealousy switch that one can turn on and off at will.

Its pretty obvious what your dom is up too imho.