I'd like to share just one more thing in connection with my upper post. The depicted situation started like a playful, eroticly sensuous game. I myself didn't look or thought about it as if I am dominating or being toppy. Nothing of the wild adrenaline and emotions that I feel when I am being submissive happened. As I said, it was just erotic and sensuous for me. But maybe only for me. Although he had agreed to my small "game" and had taken it, after I untied him, there followed one of the most emotionally and physically excrutiating experiences for me. Almost all of my limits of taking pain and humiliation were tested. So alongside with my understanding that I am definetely not interested in switching or in dominating, I was made to understand what "challenge" to my Dom means.