Thanks guys, I really appreciate having a place to get things off my chest in this community. My friends don't know about this side of my life and sometimes it's hard to keep all of that to myself. I'm just not used to the rollercoaster ride yet, I guess, lol.

And hids...I wish I had some artistic talent to direct those feelings to, but it's an area I'm just lacking. I do write some journal-like stuff for myself but I suck at writing poetry, can't draw for the life of me and writing stories feels like running a marathon. I've always envied the people who have such a great outlet for their emotions...it must be great to see something beautiful emerging from all this. I hope your lonely phase is over soon, hids.

Silke *continuing the waiting game*