I do miss it sometimes.... But I've also asked him to tell me a story to get me wound, then tell me when to go over. So for a little while, he's given the power to control the situation. I know I can do whatever I want, but having him say "now" just makes it so much more intense! And he is even more excited when I recover and tell him he did well.

I think the best part for me is hearing how happy he is. He seemed to always enjoy our roles before, but now he practically gushes his pleasure at serving me.

Silke, I know how you felt when your master was not able to be around for a while. On this side of things, somehow, I just don't feel as lonely when we're apart. Perhaps it's because I know how much I thought about him when I was the bottom, wanting to please, to follow the rules, etc, so I imagine he is now thinking of me that much. It feels really good, and I believe we are much closer than we were.

One of the things we discussed when we made the switch is that I know I will need to have him take over every now and again, so I can "let go" as you put it. He said he would be happy to serve me in that capacity for however long I want him to. Interesting way to look at it. Haven't used that yet, but I might when things get stressful at work... We'll see!

Timberwolf, I may look to you for guidance every now and again, if you don't mind. I have read many of your posts, and I think you could really help me when I get stuck, as I'm sure I will!