this thread is very interesting to me for many reasons.

Many times when i meet a "Dom" online and you are doing the getting to know you thing, i am often asked.. "How long have you been "in the lifestlye" which is kind of like TG's question of are you a lifestlyer or a part-timer...

i never know how to answer this question. i've always been this way.. it's kind of like asking someone when they knew they were gay... isn't it? do gay people say well on february 12th an 9 am it dawned on me that well i'm gay? i dunno but i know that i certainly have always felt the desire to submit to a man.

So i try to explain the concept and they then ask.. when was the first time you were with a Dom?
*sigh* a Dominant man or a man who says "HI I AM DOM LET ME TEST YOUR LIMITS"

i don't really have a date that i can trace it all back to. it's just me. and yeah i did get into the Gor series a few years ago.. i buy into the whole "the feminist movement has emasculated the males"

I just want a MAN. I long for a relationship with traditional gender roles. It is REALLY not a sexual thing for me. and i am not a painslut. i'm fairly intelligent and i want my man to be smarter than me ( it's really not that hard lol). I want to submit 24/7 but for me that does not necessarily mean wandering around in a collar (though i have been known to enjoy that) waiting for "commands".

Don't get me wrong... i have grown to love the D/s sexual stuff but that is not what this is at all for me...

i'm distracted from this thread so i will just post.