Ok so between you all you have managed to shatter my first illusion. The illusion that to be into this stuff you must be heartless, weird, not loving, not caring.

So that means I can start thinking that I have to be like that. I actually feel a small weight lifted from my heart.

Your opinion please..
My hub knows that I have joined a forum to try and sort my head out but he wants to know which one so he can read. I have told him no.. basically because if I knew he was reading I wouldn't be able to be completely honest. Now I feel guilty because I don't want to shut him out. But I feel that this is something I need to sort out on my own. Am I right??