Now I do believe that I just cannot pass this oportunity of sharing my two bits into this thread.
SID let me introduce myself and welcome you.
I too was raised Catholic. I was also in a 8 year relationship with a man, and married to him for 5 years. I was 21 when I met him and very closed off and reserved about my sexuality. When I told him that I thought I was a lesbian a year after we were dating he cried. It was the first and ONLY time I ever saw him cry. But was grateful that we were still together. The longer our relationship went on the more I started to share. I won't lie to you some of the things I told him made him stare at me like I grew another head. Which sent me closing my mouth, and full of embaressement. We split up May 1st 2005. Two months later I joined this site and believe me when I tell you this that I kept my mouth shut in the chat room for two WHOLE weeks while I watched everyone. I was even afraid how others ON THIS SITE would react to my nature. They haven't been able to shut me up since. Though I may be into some very extreme things, and into things that are most people's limit. I'm still never outcasted, nor shamed, nor embaressed. They accept me fully and most have become my friends. If they are not already they soon come to be.
When I read your introduction all I could think was ...this was me a year ago and my have I changed.
You are lucky that you have an opened minded husband. It's okay to feel the way you do it's only natural. I will tell you this ....once you slowly start talking about things and get them off your chest you'll realize in the end you had NOTHING to be embaressed about nor ashamed of.
I will offer the same as everyone else here....you are free to PM me any time with any thoughts, questions, feelings, anything even if it's talking about your day.
We've all been where you are at one time or another. We all have learned and are still learning and more then willing to offer any help you need to get you on the right track/road.
I wish you the VERY BEST in your journey.
The FiENd