you realized that it was something you could not ignore, and you found yourself at the crossroads.
I have accepted who I am and the fact that I am incredibly happy with someone who understands me, and loves me; the very people (my parents) whom I would like to tell this story to are the ones less likely to hear me. I have even come to the point that I have forgiven them and given up on the idea of ever telling them about it. It would break their hearts.
it's not an issue of me struggling with the lifestyle in itself..but me struggling with desires that are not seen as being 'conventional', being aware of those desires, not differentiating them-because I don't see them as being 'weird', people seeing them as 'straight out weird'
I feel more comfortable now with myself..
I swear...I feel like I'm looking into a two way mirror here.

I finally have stopped walking around in the medium and got my ass on the road and got to the Crossroads, and took one of the paths.

I'm done ignoring or denying what I find enjoyable, and going to explore it, ignoring those that scoff or get disgusted - even if it's myself just so I can face the truth.

The road of self discovery and acceptance isn't paved, which I have learned is rough but enjoyable.


Ya, I didn't answer much of what was asked, however I have to say thanks to this thread I'm done lurking.