Hi.

Red Vixen; I am not at all offended by your posting and I think you make some very valid points which I certainly would not disagree with.

I was very lucky; I acknowledge that, and I know things could have worked out very differently. In fact my closest (vanilla) friend was appalled about what I was doing and issued me with a whole series of dire warnings about my first owner. And she could have been right......................... Thankfully she was 100% wrong.

Apropos the latter postings, I am an example of a girl who was bullied at home and that was the cause of my teenage angst. But I have never been raped or sexually abused in any way. I know that bullying often leads to sexual assault in some homes, but I was lucky (again) as my brother's 'little games' never developed that far> Also ours was a very closed household so they never handed me over to their friends. (As happened to a friend of mine at school)

It may be cathartic talking about these things but maybe it is a measure of how things have changed for me in that I can discuss parts of my life that, once upon a time, were deep dark secrets for me.

Love, Jane.