Hello kitten and thank you so much for your post. What you have to say hits very close to home for me. i have been with my Master for only a few months as well and O/our relationship is online (for now, W/we are planning on making it r/l as soon as possible). i think when we find our One we experience the feelings you describe i know i have. He gets me like no one ever has and i get Him the same way. i was pretty new coming into my submission when W/we met. i was still a bit unsure about what i was looking for and what my desires were. Before W/we ever even spoke privately i was drawn to Him, i had read some of His posts and W/we had flirted some in the Fun and Games threads, then i sent Him a PM and W/we have been inseperable since. When W/we first started chatting i was a little reserved and shy about some things and every day i felt and still feel myself coming more and more into my submission to Him and more and more alive, i finally feel like me it is a strange and a little scary feeling because how can someone get me so completely and make me feel the way He does...but it's so beautiful and although i am His completely i feel freer than i have ever felt in my life (if that makes any sense). As far as His physical presence...He is on the East coast and i am on the West Coast but i feel him with me always. When W/we are together and in play online and He commands me to do things to myself yes technically it's me doing them but in my mind and the mindframe i am in it's Him doing them, it's His hands touching my skin not mine. Friends of mine that know of my relationship to Him ask me all the time and people have asked it here in the threads as well how can online get it done well it's all up to Y/you, it can work and be the most amazing experience you have ever had if you allow it to be and let yourself go, i know it has been for me i'm not sure if i have helped in anyway but if anything you will know you are not alone in your feelings. i think it's a natural thing to experience as you and your Master and all of U/us in the lifestyle experience as W/we travel along in O/our journies. Sometimes when we are most happiest we find ourselves questoning things because we have a hard time accepting that things really can be this good. Be happy and enjoy, and take care ~jacee
P.S. if you ever wanna talk please feel free to PM me