I feel almost strange, now. My father died when I was four, and my mom did not believe in spanking, so I don't remember ever being spanked as a child. I know that part of my submissiveness is looking for a father figure-not a Dad, but a male with authority. I love to be spanked now; I wonder if I would if my mom had spanked me.
I've noticed a lot of, well, if we were in person I would call them nervous or guilty giggles in people's posts. Isn't this a place where we don't have to feel guilty or ashamed? One of my other interests is medieval recreation (wait, it will tie in) and at many of our events we host a Newcomer's Class. One person who teaches it very well says that we are a 12-step program for weirdos (we play dress up and meet at campgrounds to have sleep-overs, if you want to put it that way.) The thing is, we got as far as admitting we were weird, the first step, and quit there. Isn't this, this site, this orientation, sort of the same thing? We admit to ourselves and (some) others that we are "weird," then we just go with it. I don't tell everyone I am a sub, 'cause LOTS of people can't/won't/don't understand, but here I can be proud of it.
I know that was kind of long-winded, but I hope it helps.