The only think i can think of in my childhood that may have showed that i have a sub side was i was allways the tomboy starting fights that i allways lost to allowing them to pin me down i enjoyed that. also around the age of 8 i was cought playing with myself nd was told by my mom and grandma that it was wrong, but before i gotcought i remeber liking the way it felt and tasted.but after i wastold it was wrong andyoung ladys don't do stuff like that i stopped and didn't start up again until 3 years ago and now i still feel guilty for useing a toy witch cause me to not have a release.
Then in the past few years i have felt like there is something missing in my life, when i have had sex over the years i like it rough but no one has been able to Satisfy my needs or give me a release. Now at 35 i have finally figuered out that i need more.. So being newto all this any and all help would be great