Last night after a few beers i realized that i wasn't feeling very submissive and i asked Mistress Strypi to paddle my ass. She instructed me to pick out the implements and i chose the PEX pipe and a hairbrush paddle that i built myself from a nice piece of walnut. She tuned me up well, focusing on my bare ass cheeks just below my waistband. She hasn't ever beaten me there and it hurt real bad- bringing tears to my eyes. i had to ask for several breaks during the 15 minute session, but i am really trying to get better about being still and not hollering out during the pain. When She finished She asked me, "How do you feel?" and i responded, "submissive."

Afterwards, i asked Her if i could make love to Her, and we had passionate & sensual sex. During sex is the most difficult time for me to behave correctly. When i am ramming my cock into her ass, pussy, or face, i instinctively move her into the positions i want. i place my hands around her neck, grab handfuls of her beautiful red hair, grab her breasts forcefully, and generally and naturally dominate during sex because she enjoys it probably more than i do. However, we both know this is not appropriate behavior for me. Our after-session sex last night was different. i asked for sex instead of taking it, i caressed Her instead instead of manhandling Her, i asked her to change positions rather than placing Her how i wanted, and i asked which holes i could have instead of fucking all that i wanted. i am super proud of this major accomplishment! i think She should paddle my ass before sex every time to remind me of my submissiveness.

All of that being said, i am more eager than ever for the next full moon on March 8th. Strypi believes it will be good to "let the beast out". When the moon is full, i plan to ravage every hole She has, and take Her however i want! We agree though, that it would not be proper for me to strike Her body in any manner, but i think some bondage would be amazing.