You're right, I did phrase that badly. That wasn't exactly what I meant.

There were certain things that were included in my abuse that I do enjoy (when they aren't being done against my will of course), what I actually meant was that figuring out the difference between submissive tendacies and a reaction to familiarity with abuse comes down to how you feel about it, hence why I suggested siting down and thinking it through. My original statement was really far too generalized. My biggest hurdle to overcome in play was figuring out whether it was the act or the situation that was the issue, which was what I was trying to recommend. Thanks for bringing up how unclear that was