Childhood Trauma

[skittish doe]

I wish I had the most brilliant words of advice and guidance for you but I think allowing yourself to open up to platonic friendships first (within the kinky community) will help. Maybe that's the solution...try spending time REALLY getting to know a few different people in a non-sexual, non-physical way. Talk about bdsm, kinks, vanilla things. Learn about who they are...and allow them to learn about you. Trust grows slowly ...

^ the most brilliant words of advice... mho.

I'm more in danger of never getting close to someone again than letting the wrong person in.

I soooo 'get' ^ this. Risks are scary, certainly. Talk to people though. Do so within your own safe zone. If you are smart about the risks you take, they can yield the most rewarding experiences. I wish you well.