i always loved it when i was young that i could crawl on my hands and knees and act like a dog

i saw a story on the news about a girl getting raped and i started fantasizing about being raped ever since and i would start pinching my nipples and loved that it hurt

and when i saw law and order svu i was fantasizing even more and i started cutting myself and loved the sting of it but an adult caught me once and put me in a mental hospital

i always love when im walking around my place that i find something and i use it to punish myself for getting caught