Girl in the moon

[dohima]

Hello, my friends. I am a 23 years old college girl, of Serbian-Croatian origin, but not speaking the two (rather similar) languages, having brought up by my Grandma in Hungary. I have lost my parents early. I love Grandma very much. She spanked me rather frequently, when I was naughty, but I took that as a normal part of our life. Of course, she doesn't spank me any more, but if she did, even now I would lie on her knee without any objection. She is financing my studies at present, and in vacation she makes me work. Perhaps her disciplinary methods made me inclined to submissive fantasies. In my feelings "love" and "humiliation" keep together. I have a very vivid imagination and rich fantasies, but I never went on to share these. I am shy. My best friends don't know anything about my wild masochistic dreams. There is a BDSM subculture in Hungary, but I am not part of it. It is considered indecent. And , externally, I am a very decent girl, not pretty at all, but easy-going, loved by friends, having nice manners, doing rather well in college, living modestly and so on. In my heart, I am a shameless bitch. I think here I will be free to express my fantasies, if there is somebody who wants to enter them, and show me hers. I don't want to go further than sharing fantasies. I won't use webcam, neither send pictures of me, nor give my real name - I don't want to reveal myself in real life at all. I don't seek personal contacts or lasting relationships. I am a girl in the moon.

[Tufty]

Sometimes, the moon is a good place :)

Hello and :wel to the Forums

[rosebud]

:wave: Welcome to the Library! Have fun!

[dohima]

Thank you, Tufty and Rosebud, for the nice welcome. I am happy to be welcomed as soon as this.

You are moderators, aren't you? I promise I will be obedient. Please spank me if I am not.

Thanks again.

[skp2bear]

A very hearty welcome from a Texas sub.

[dohima]

Really, I don't deserve so much friendliness. A dirty slut like me rather deserves a hard punishment.

Thank you very much, my dear friend, for being so nice to me.

Dohima

[lucy]

Hello and welcome to the library, Dohima :wave:

And allow me to disagree: No matter if you're a dirty slut, you still deserve friendliness. And punishment too, of course ;)

[dohima]

OK, Lucy, then please punish me in a friendly way. I submit myself enthusiastically. :-) (And, if you like it, really. Some punishments can be executed from distance.)

Thank you for your post, dear. I start feeling great.

My best friends are Bea and Zsuzsa. ("Zs" sounds like "g" in "mirage".) They know nothing about my masochistic side, but we three are frequently together, drinking coffee and laughing and joking. I feel great then. And I always accept their propositions - I don't mind what are we doing, just should I enjoy this happy community of girls. I am, in reality, a submissive then, obeying their wishes in everything. But I crave for more humiliation, I would want to kiss their hands and feet. Only I am too shy to say so. It wouldn't be good.

Now I am very happy, telling you about these things.

[DarkDreamMaker]

Hello and Welcome to the site - Enjoy yourself.

[MrDom]

Welcome to the Library

[dohima]

Thanks for your welcome message, my friend. May I ask a question, please? Are your dreams dark? Bloody horror? Or do you make your submissives' dreams dark? My dreams about my torturer aren't dark at all. They are dreams of love, not horror. They have no fear in them. She is laughing and mocking me when I suffer. It is humiliating but not scaring.

Thank you again for kindly welcoming me, I am really honored.

Dohima

[dohima]

Your welcome and your offer are great honor for me. I didn't hope I would get so much attention.

I would willingly expose my naked body to your whip. I think I would howl like a banshee, but you would know how to tie me up properly and gag me properly, so that I may get my full portion. After you released me, I would humbly kiss your hands and your feet.

However, my friend (or have I to address you as Master?), I am very sorry, it won't go. Perhaps you haven't read my introductory message. I don't want any real contact. My life is regulated by my Grandma and my friends who know nothing about my submissive inclinations. Perhaps my future husband will know nothing about them either. My dreams are secret dreams, I am not part of the BDSM subculture. I reveal them here in the BDSM Library, but without revealing my identity. I don't upload photos either. Here I want to share my fantasies and no more. One of them will be that I am writhing under your whip.

So, dear Master, I remain in the moon. I am a very bad girl and I deserve every punishment, but these are the hard facts.

I thank you repeatedly.

Dohima

[arforface]

hi dohima
first of all wellcome in that site
i'm new in it but think it's the best at all
ur words about not want a real contact make me think i found what i need at this time
also encouraged me to ask u for pvt online chat
ur words about ur dreams make me sure dirty slut as u must be spanked hardly for long time making ur body suffer alot

[WebMan]

Welcome dohima!

I'm a little new here myself. I understand your desire to keep your real identity/life out of your online fun and I respect that. I'd love to chat with you sometime! PM me!

[denuseri]

Wellcome to the site!!!

We are so very happy to have you here. The forums are full of great information, as well as having a very nice personels section and chatroom.

There is also an awsome Tasking Society for those wishing to learn just how to give and or preform commands.

Feel free to pm any of the staff or myself with conserns or questions, we are more than willing to lend a hand.

Hope to see more of you soon.
Have lots of fun exploring the site!!


Hugs and kissess,
denuseri

[DiablosLittleOne]

Welcome to the Library. :)

[Diablo]

Welcome and spankings for everyone here.

[angelic.zest]

welcome!

[dohima]

Thank you for your post, my dear friend. You wrote:

"ur words about ur dreams make me sure dirty slut as u must be spanked hardly for long time making ur body suffer a lot"

Yes, yes, yes, yes, I must! It is the right way of handling me. My naked body spread and tied, a gag in my mouth, you coming along with your cane (or whip), and trashing me till I bleed - and more... Thank you very much indeed. A filthy bitch like me doesn't deserve anything but that. After the beating, if I am still alive :-), you give me your hand to kiss, and ask me how I enjoyed it. :-)

Unfortunately, it is just a fantasy. You know I don't seek personal contacts. As for the private chat, at present I am unable to comply with your wish. I had such chats with two guys, one of them humiliating me properly, but there were factors that made me think. So, please try to find somebody else, and let me think a bit. Thank you very much again.

[Ozme52]

:wel dohima

I can see already you are enjoying yourself.

[PAIN(M)]

welcome

[dohima]

Thanks for the welcome. I receive so many welcome messages that I am unable to replay them. I really feel that I don't deserve them. You are so good to me.

"I can see already you are enjoying yourself."

I am indeed. Arforface was so kind as to give me the cue.

I am especially happy with denuseri's hugs and kisses. I feel honored.

Very hearty thanks to everybody.

Dohima

[Euryleia]

Welcome to the forums. May you find what you seek.

[rsjankowski]

welcome to the community, and it's great that you would share some of your fantasies and be your self on some of those moon filled nights, hope some of those stories make it to the library. we could use some extra moonlight to read by.

[dohima]

Thanks for the welcome and your kind interest. My fantasies are not "stories". I am exposed and humiliated, my breasts and back, bottom and belly and also my thighs are whipped, mostly by women, sometimes by men, and I express my thanks for the punishment kissing their hands, knees, feet. Clamps are put on my nipples and I am made kneel on rice and gravel and tacks. I am mocked, too, and I love it. I can't write stories like those that I read here. And I confess I am frightened a bit. In a story I read that 13 strokes with a paddle mean excruciating pain. In my fantasies I get much more. Reality is frightening.

[rsjankowski]

yes i've heard that truth is stranger than fiction, and probably a whole hell of a lot more intense. but any fantasy or reality told to another is a story if not witnessed first hand, i applaud your fortitude, and your desire, just wish there were more like you, and i so love hearing the truth of things, it lets me know just what a person can withstand and for how long, kinda like research and of course i get a charge out of it, can't help that, let that moonshine flow, it brightens up the library. thank you for joining. for i've thouhgt experience makes for better tellings

[Aussiegirl1]

Hi and welcome to the site, I am sure you will find it fun and informative!

[dohima]

Welcome to the forums. May you find what you seek.

Can I, dear? I start being doubtful. But I thank you for the kind welcome. I really don't deserve so much attention. I mean it, it is not just a pose of self-humiliation. At the same time, I really wish to humiliate myself before a lady who doesn't spare me.

[dohima]

i applaud your fortitude, and your desire, just wish there were more like you

Thank you very much for your nice words.

I can be straightforward because I abide in the moon. Where people see my face and know my name, I am really very shy, laughed at by my best friends for it, and carefully hiding my fantasies. Here I am like a bottle of champagne from which the plug is just pulled out.

[dohima]

Hi and welcome to the site, I am sure you will find it fun and informative!

Very hearty thanks indeed for the nice greetings. In this very thread Lucy said that, in spite of being a dirty slut, I deserve friendliness, but of course, I also deserve punishment. Well, dear, I am bathing in friendliness, and I enjoy it very much indeed, but where is the punishment? Of course, I mean only a virtual session of punishment, but it can produce real humiliation, even real pain, too. Only I seek a girl. Guys all want to see me, and, as I said, I won't upload photos. At the same time, I can well understand their demand. Perhaps I will write a blog entry about this.

I have already found very important pieces of information. I didn't even know what a dildo was. And I still don't quite understand what "vanilla" means. Does it mean "non-sexual interest" or "not-BDSM sex"?

Thanks again.

Dohima

[rsjankowski]

vanilla means not a bdsm sexual lifestyle, pretty much everything is dull or boring, with no place for something out of the ordinary. kinda like stale rice cakes, no taste, nothing to them.

[dohima]

Earlier I wrote:


Where is the punishment? Of course, I mean only a virtual session of punishment, but it can produce real humiliation, even real pain, too. Only I seek a girl. Guys all want to see me, and, as I said, I won't upload photos. At the same time, I can well understand their demand. Perhaps I will write a blog entry about this.


Now I produced the blog, with the title: SLAP YOUR FACE. Kindly check it out if you are interested. It also contains how I plan Yahoo! Messaging in the future. There are chances. :-)

[lucy]

vanilla means not a bdsm sexual lifestyle, pretty much everything is dull or boring, with no place for something out of the ordinary. kinda like stale rice cakes, no taste, nothing to them.
a bit harsh, imho. Many people like it the vanilla way and many of them are probably just as happy as BDSMers.

[dohima]

I want to thank Robert and Lucy for the useful posts about the meaning of "vanilla". I also have got valuable information from denuseri in private messages. My real problem was whether I fulfilled my "About Me" right or revealed again how stupid I was. I am, of course, just I don't like if it shows. :-) I am telling there about my love relationships, while I can see that other people are telling about their non-sexual interests, as reading, music etc. Denuseri has assured me that it goes both way. Confirmed by Robert's and Lucy's posts, I leave it as it is. Thanks again for your kindness.

[dohima]

Earlier I wrote:

Now I produced the blog, with the title: SLAP YOUR FACE. Kindly check it out if you are interested. It also contains how I plan Yahoo! Messaging in the future. There are chances. :-)

Well, there are no chances any more. My attitude has changed. Sorry, but I don't seek cyber sessions any more. I am very sorry for being so hesitant and confused. I wrote a new blog with the title "Old male chimpanzee". It explains the change.

Things are showing otherwise from the moon...

[rsjankowski]

a bit harsh, imho. Many people like it the vanilla way and many of them are probably just as happy as BDSMers.

sometimes i get that, i try to be blunt and to the point, but alot of times it comes across as arrogant or mean. occupational hazard? sorry if it happens just trying to be helpful. :wave:

[dohima]

While I think Lucy is right, let me say, however, that your post was helpful for me, Robert. I thank you for it repeatedly. Now I start using the term "vanilla" myself. :-)


sometimes i get that, i try to be blunt and to the point, but alot of times it comes across as arrogant or mean. occupational hazard? sorry if it happens just trying to be helpful. :wave:

[dohima]

A very kind gentleman messaged me, saying that he wouldn't mind punishing me online. His first question was whether I have a webcam. Well, I came to fully understand the demand. A man wants to see me when punished. He wants to see a girl naked. If he tells me to whip myself, he wants to see the whip strokes administered properly. If he tells me to put clamps on my nipples, he wants to see those clamps applied. I he tells me to kneel on rice, he wants to see the marks on my knees. Perhaps he wants to see a dildo at work. And I don't think that females are much different. Because I want to hide my identity and don't show my face, my ideas about cyber punishment sessions were really silly. Any fantasy play I still want to do will take place via private messaging. A nice lady gave me permission to kiss her feet. I do it almost every day, with the happy excitement of self-humiliation in my body. It doesn't take place via webcam, only in private messages. I enjoy going down to my knees and kissing the floor (in my fantasy: her feet) at the end of my letters, and she enjoys my kiss reading my messages (in her fantasy: feeling my lips on her feet). I have no foot fetish, what I enjoy is humiliation.
Similar way I could enjoy being whipped. You give me the number of strokes. They will be executed (in reality, not only in fantasy) and thanked properly. Please punish me for being so silly as I was. My pain will be real, not mere fantasy.

[denuseri]

Just be very careful with your personal information boo, and remember if you put a picture or a cam session up on the internet, it is there forever and who really knows what the other person will really do with it.

[dohima]

Yes, thanks for the warning. I will not use a webcam. Among other reasons, I have none. Pictures I have, but won't upload them.
Thanks again, denuseri.


Just be very careful with your personal information boo, and remember if you put a picture or a cam session up on the internet, it is there forever and who really knows what the other person will really do with it.

[dohima]

I am leaving BDSM Library, never to return. I won't bother others with my crazy ideas any more. I sincerely apologize for every wrong I did. You were incredibly nice to me all, thank you a thousand times.
Dohima

[rsjankowski]

awwww! but i liked your crazy ideas. glad you at least stayed a while, take care, and you will be missed. if you need anything or want to ask any questions, i'm on the yahoo messenger : id rsjankowski just mention your from the library. my email should be on my page in the library.