confused newbie

[Lisa123]

I started exploring bdsm, I'm really curios, but sort of nervous too?
I'm 18, mostly shy and reserved, raised pretty conservatively, last year in high school, don't stand out a lot, have a hard time just letting go, very self contained. I don't have any bdsm experience, or actually don't have much experience in general. I probably seem pretty vanilla.

The thing is I came across bdsm a while ago, and can't seem to stop going back to it. I find it fascinating, spend ages researching it and reading, and would love to explore. But it was hard to get the courage to post here.
Um, I think i'm a sub, from my few tries a self-bondage, I just can't see myself as a domme. And though I'm a feminist, I feel submissive. Illogical, and confusing, but still.
Anyhow, I'm sort of lost :s

[MasterAnon]

Welcome to the library, hope you can find the answers you seek.

[ksst]

Welcome! I'm a feminist sub too. The big thing is we choose to submit to a dominant, not that we're forced by society to take an unwilling role, hey?

[English Sir]

Good day ladies, whatever you are hope you are having a good day

[Sarah0]

I'm new as well, nineteen, in about the same situation you are: inexperienced, but fascinated. I'd be curious to know what sort of things you learn.

[English Sir]

Hi confused and Sarah, hope you find that what you seek, and hope you learn to enjoy through words before actions, words excite and tease and play and create mindblowing images in your head if you believe and play (in safety) x

[Xmaster1]

Welcome :) Don't be too shy. Ask questions. Come chat. Whatever feels comfortable. Read the forums, lots of good info here.

[Domin8or]

Greetings and welcome to this place of wonderful sins and pleasures. Enjoy your journey.

[denuseri]

Welcome to our kinky little corner of the internet!

[AeroFly]

Welcome Lisa. I joined this forum today. I have recently understood that all my fantasies have been around being a Dom all my life. Having read a lot and having had a good guide ( she is a sub ) who helps me understand what being a Dom means, i'm all set to explore this side of me. Starting with a hunt for an online sub atm.

Hope you find what you are looking for. :-) Talk to any of us to understand it more.
Ciao

[rosebud]

Hello, Welcome to the Library!
Enjoy!

xx rosie

[emeralds]

smiles.. hello Lisa.. i hope you find what you seek.. and that you enjoy the journey which is just as important.. smiles.. your not alone in the confusion.. just go slowly.. and only do what feels right for you.. and dont worry about the labels too much.. what you are and what you need will come in time..
em
xx

ps.. oh remember.. safe, sane, consensual... ..

[SirTimothyk]

Lisa,
welcome to the library. Let me know if you have any questions.
Tim

[iucundavi]

Hi Lisa,

Welcome, I hope you find the answers you're looking for.