The hurt runs hot…jagged…tearing me to shreds From the inside out My heart swells with ugly anger Filling my chest Suffocating me The tears fall scorching down my cheeks The sobs are drowning in my throat My hands reach out and grasp at straws…marked love, hope, devotion A moments relief as I hold them to my chest Curling up, soothed by their promise.. Then a memory, a word brings it crashing down ...
thank you, for reminding me and for showing me for bringing back the cold. its better this way if i’m in ice i can’t feel if i’m frozen i can’t cry if i’m numb, i can’t move to hold you and find nothing is there but empty dead air
So, My whore.... I will Release you from your kollar...... but I will never release you from what you have become to Me...Mine.... I will be in your life.... and do as I wish with you as I wish..... you do understand this..... but you do not need to wait for Me any more.... you will shed a tear....for something you did not do.... for you did not fail as a slave as you and others would look at it...... but... at this age in My life I have seen perhaps to much....I do not look up this as a lost but ...
I will let you keep your dignity. Your fantasy, your lies..these will remain secret so that you can save face. Three people know the truth. How tragic it must be to live your life unable to accept defeat graciously.,needing to fabricate the reason why. What a tangled web we weave when we try to deceive. Sleep well, awake and look in the mirror......do you like what you see? Dont fear, I wont expose you .........just remember, Before you can be true to ...
Breathing…it’s all about breathing And waiting…waiting for his word and his truth The trust…the promise The spoken totem he has given me for my peace. I shall not falter, shall not waver from my direction Happiness is mine He gave it to me, and he will not take it back. I will simply wait, and just...keep... Breathing
I felt it for real....you felt it in your mind. I tasted him as he did me....you licked your lips pretending. I heard his words....you only read them. I see the marks.....you merely wished for them. I held him in my arms....you only hoped. I awoke to him.....you only dreamt of him. I have him......you never did. I am his desire.....you were a fill in. I am his need....you were a toy. I am his love....you were his amusement. We ...
With your lips not here I kiss rubies to remember. When I can't sip from you, I put my lip on the cup's lip. Instead of reaching into your sky, I kneel and take handfuls of earth. ~Rumi This heart is such a complicated thing… full of wants and desires…never fully satisfied, never filling up. I want my heart to be full! It’s true that that the hunger can be sweet…and the meat sweeter…but i am tired of this hunt, the wounds…the endless searching and ...
That's all I got! pfff!!! Nothing more. Now...to all that know me...those are almost fighting words. You can’t say shit like this to me! Simply NOT right! .. eyes wide...nostrils flare as i storm off...like a baby i turn to my friend and Mentors and even bring the topic up in chat really brainstorming this because…gha!! The audacity of such a BOLD statement~ i will claim equality and prove Him wrong. i got highly intellectual answers and words of wisdom 1. Both ...
When you are gone, all the nervous energy closes in on me…the soft insanity that gathers around the edges of my mind, seducing me…consuming me…then raging into my soul. All my fears whispered, hushed and insistent, into covered ears….then screamed out of open, silent lips! I reach into emptiness…dead air and darkness…searching… And then…in a moment…you are there! And i breathe! And i weep! You murmur your power into the buzzing greyness of my head, ...
How can it just keep getting better? Every time i think “this is it…this was the best” he pulls me down a little further…deeper into his arms, his heart, his passion. He is patient with my moods, tender with my needs… taking from me all he desires, but giving back so much more! He coaxes from me the hunger to give my all…beyond my ability…the desperate need to please him becoming perfect surrender. And he takes from me my breath again…...and again!
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