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I am about to celebrate the two year anniversary of my collaring next month. YAY! Who knew I could still be this happy? Sire is a wonderful man and together we are an amazing couple.

I recently forayed into the Top side. I am lucky enough to have found a very willing sub who totally adores me. He is young and curious, I have enough experience to be good for him, yet little enough that this is also an exploration for me. We all have to start somewhere. I am lucky because I live with ...

I might have
mentioned that this was a trying week, I was under pressure to meet a deadline,
and ended up not jogging all week. I met "Steve" my "editor" for sundowners on Wednesday evening to
hand over my portfolio. Steven and I have been friends for a long time; I trusthim, even though he is my "boss" and know that he will forgive me if I just run off. See I plan to cum tonight in the bathroom while I'm with Steve. I
need to cum! I need ...

Question: Do you believe your Master?

Question: Should you?

Answer: No.

At least "no, not if s/he's doing it right."

We are hostages of a long-ago philosophical debate than many don't even know occurred. The setting for the debate was the 18th century, and the scene was western Europe. For centuries, our universe was filled with the Unknowable. Things we had no way of understanding:

where do spices comes from? The border

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A female friend, that become a mentor and a confidante here online, led me to the shameful discovery that I don't really know what I'm doing with my pussy. After a few pointers I now know what to do with my clit --OH, MY WORD! what a mind-blowing discovery. This is now where I get left behind and my OCD kinks in -- I simply cannot get enough, I want to feel it, touch it and make myself cum, every min I possibly can. A suggested that I make my "sexual awakening" a little more exciting, ...

fish out of water.
I am dying to start putting my bondage fantasies down on paper, more than writing about it I want to experience it!!! but it turns out to be much harder than I thought. Even if my stories are just fiction I would like have some substance. I like to do things right. I cannot write a convincible story if I have no clue of what I am talking about. But I can't entice any one to whip my ass?!! The true born Jezebel has lost her touch.
I'm confronting insecurity ...

I'm a great admirer of the singer/songwriter Christine Lavin. She manages to alternate laughable slice-of-life songs with ones that offer powerful reflection on parts of life we experience but don't know how to name. In particular, I was thinking of subs and listening to Lavin's "Damaged Goods." The middle lyrics:

She had her first man when she was 23,
Years after all her girlfriends gave away their virginity.
And now at last she thought her life had begun,

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Was it really me who revealad so many intimate things about myself?

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Do you like to dance? Little boys and girls, universally. Women, generally. Young men, occasionally. "Mature" men (hah!), not so much. Actually, "way too much given how wretched they are." Work by British evolutionary biologists suggests a painful explanation for the near-universal horror of middle-aged male dancing:

The cringeworthy ''dad dancing'' witnessed at wedding receptions every weekend may be an unconscious way in which ageing males repel the attention

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