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Turns out i'm perfectly fine.

Well, let me rephrase: i don't have appendicitis. Apparently i just pulled a weird muscle or something, because i never got sick and we were never given cause to head to the hospital (thank GOD!)



Meanwhile, life as i know it has set my wheels turning; how much of who i am, what i know, what i value... is because i am American? In how many ways am i spoiled without knowing it? In how many ways ignorant? Maybe i'll find that ...

So, I've been talking to a Dom online quite a bit - we've talked for months and played several times recently to mutual enjoyment. *blushes* Since we live fairly close, we decided to meet for lunch last week, but he had to cancel at the last minute due to work. We re-scheduled, but again, something came up at his job. I was a little ticked off, so I tried to send him an e-mail saying "You owe me." However, I typed an 'n' instead of the first 'e.'

Did I mean it? I don't ...

I am reminded of who i am today........scary to have my own words come back and haunt me.

knowing the answers.......knowing them......doesn't make the knowledge any less bitter......

It is so much better to .....be the light....and have the world bask in its warmth.......then to dare look upon it myself..........

As i type, Sir and i are trying to decide if i should head into the ER to get checked for appendicitis.

Fact one: i would do most anything for Him. He coddles me when i need it, and helps me grow when i need it, and makes me grow when i don't want to but need to, and brings me flowers for no reason at all, and opens doors all day long. He is the perfect man first, and the perfect Sir (for me, anyways) second, and He knows that i am His completely.

Fact two: Not even ...

Our supper was pleasant, but nothing to write about. Ed is a mysterious guest, I never know what to expect.

I flew in at his request, he said that he would take care of while "arrangements"..



Ed hands me the keys to the apartment in New York city…. On 16th and Adams.
My curiosity is now overcoming me.
It is on the 24th floor

My energy level increases considerably when Ed tells me with a wink that I would find a ...

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I was in the lunch room in the building where I work the other day, Go figure, I was eating lunch. Anyway, there were a *butt load of magazines on one of the table.

Being bored and lonely (no one wanted to eat with me because I am mean) I grabbed a couple magazines (stole them from fearful co-workers) and sat down to lunch. Upon opening the magazines I learned that they were movie/TV star gossip magazines.

I don't get it. Who the fuck are these people? I never heard ...

Slaves Rules


1) I will always obey my master
2) I will always call master sir or master (where it is appropriate)
3) I will always refer to my self in the third person
4) I will not cum with out permission
5) I will always clean up using my hands and mouth
6) I will always have my mouth open
7) I will always have my legs apart
8) I will keep have no hair from the neck down
9) I will wear my collar at all time (when ...

About a month ago I posted an ad on this forum, "seeking painslut", not looking for or expecting anything but some fun play session. It's fun looking back when things are as they are now. But I'm getting ahead of myself.

I got approached by a few people, some who seemed interesting, all who dropped communication after a PM or two. All but one. Her name on this forum is PervertedPages, here is the beginning of the first PM she sent me;

"Hello. I'm stuck ...

since my Master has left i have been very sad but i have been approached by another Master who has been a very understanding Master and knows how i feel and what i am going through as he is going through a similiar role he has asked me to become his slave and he would cherish me like my other Master did i am a bit wary in saying yes to this Master as he is in a vanilla relationship but he has explainedto me that his wife has no interest in bdsm lifestyle and would no interfere with us but i am still ...