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First porn: I was 13. I was sleeping over at my grandma's house. Her guest room was filled with books, an entire wall of books, books on the bed headboard, books in the adjoining room. I discovered a 1970s copy of The Joy of Sex and was awake until the wee hours of the morning, looking at the hand-drawn pictures of long-haired men and unshaven women copulating in all manner of ways. It was scientific fascination until I got to the page on bondage. That image of a woman bound (spread-eagled, says ...

I am a perfectionist. I will write and rewrite sentences, paragraphs, entire posts - again and again until each word is just so. Sometimes I'll write an entire post and then delete the whole thing because it's not expressing what I actually want to communicate.

My job is all about communication. I like to think I'm a good speaker and listener. I have been told I'm a good speaker and listener. While I have also been told I'm a good writer, it doesn't come as easily to me... unless ...

"allot" is not a word. "alot" is not a word.

But thanks for letting us all know who the imbeciles are.

Current Mood: Anyone with a current mood is a dipshit.

Overwhelmed by the estate, the Marquis, and the generosity of the
offer, Kris could only nod her assent. The Marquis smiled broadly again
and pressed a button on the desk. Almost immediately a door opened to
admit a petite young woman wearing a traditional maids uniform. The
Marquis began to give instructions, "Deborah, take Kris upstairs to the
guest room, see that she has everything she needs to properly prepare for
dinner this evening. Give her any ...

^ Any Muppet fans? No...? Um, yeah. Just checking.

Welcome to my first blog here. i probably won't be doing much talking about myself, unless it pertains to the subject... How does one have a non self-centric blog, you ask? Let me show you.

Do you ever find yourself just floating? i don't mean subspace, i mean being ungrounded in your day to day comings and goings. i personally am not 24/7 -- and even though i'm definitely submissive in the bedroom, i would even go ...

I am 36 years of age and I would like to say hello to everyone. I am currently single but talking to an experienced Subbie. I have tried to be a Dom in a previous relationship but she never wanted to practice. Now that I have met a true experienced Subbie I feel that I need to learn and learn fast. By the way, this is a long distant relationship that I am in right now where I have never met her. She talks of all the things she has done and we have already reached the decision of my title. Can anybody ...

well here are some more random thoughts:

i have been lurking here .. spending some time in the chat room, getting to know some people. And i have a question or concern.
i suppose it is a submissive desire to feel that collar around his or her neck. So much so that it seems almost desperate.. so much so that some feel *left* out when they do not have this symbol of belonging wrapped around their neck. My question though is, does such collar have a Velcro fastener? Ok ok let ...

Does it make any sense I wonder? He has recently stumbled upon the world of BDSM and we have embarked on a 24-7 relationship. Yet there are things missing. He isn't consistant. He claims he doesn't always think about sex the way I do. (It's always on my mind) So we set rules for me to obey, and then he forgets them. He's getting better over time, but I need a firmer hand (so to speak) My Collar is going to arrive in about a week and I really want things under control by then. Should I switch, and ...

I have friends here in the library. How the fuck did that happen?

I was minding my business, writing darkly tinted BDSm stories and suddenly I have people talking to me. Next thing I know I have friends.

Let's see, I have one or two friends in the real world and I have about 16 here. At least, according to this site.

I am not very nice, nor am I sociable. I'm not overly sensitive and I'm not very tactful. So why do people keep wanting to be my friend? ...

When did life become so complicated? All I wanted was to reap the fruits of my labours of the last fifteen years, but I guess that's not happening very soon. And why did I write this as my first blog entry? Not a very positive start. But I remember beginning my first diary with, "So I still think it's a stupid idea" and I went on to write for almost a decade.Might carry this on for almost as long!