sadiej

Alone

Alone, I sit here by myself
An unread book upon the shelf

Filled with thoughts and so much feeling
Heart and soul inside me reeling,

Tempest tossed upon the storm,
Looking for a haven, warm.

Your smile, your smell your presence near
It soothes and calms my aching fear

The treasured touch, a gentle hand
Like water poured upon parched land

It purifies my soul with fire, ...

Posession

Like sunlight dancing, warming skin
That liquid flame that builds within

Passions desire to just give in
Surrender will and trust to him

In his hands if find such bliss,
My own control I do not miss.

Arousing presence fills and burn
Submission deep within me yearns

He owns me body, mind and soul
Possessed is complete and whole

Bereft

Seeds scattered on the wind that cannot not be gathered
Barren hands, grasping for what was once possessed
The rudderless meanderings of a dispossessed soul.

Poured out, spent. I find no balm for me aching need.
I stand alone with only the echoes of my pain

Silent tears for the fallen dream

once upon a time there was a sub named goldie. she had a wonderful Master who delighted himself in torturning her tits. he would tie them and tickle and suck them... until one day, he dicided to clamp them! "now golidesub," says Master. "i want you to tell me which torture is better." and he proceeded to take out his toybox.

the first torture was clothespins! but alas, they were from the fairgodmother's dollar store, and were not very well made. "these ...

As I write this, I look at the date on the calendar and cannot believe that only 26 days ago I started my journey as a sub.

It has been an incredible experience of terrifying and empowering self-discovery. Finally realizing, embracing and understanding that yearning desire to submit.

My "logical mind" still fights this need for control. But my soul is satisfied, content in my Freedom Constrained.


Freedom Constrained
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